Monday, November 18, 2013

Hold That Moment

Ever just wanted to pause life just for a moment and really and I mean really take it all in? I had one of those special 'can I just pause this and enjoy for a moment' moments yesterday as I was preparing our weekly Sunday Breakfast at Dinner meal after church.  I heard laughing and playing from all three kids coming from the living room and couldn't believe my ears.  I sneaked a peak from the dining room to see what they were doing and they were playing together very nicely.  I couldn't believe it.  It seems like it has been a long time since real genuine playing and laughter has filled our home and I am loving it.  I don't ever want it to stop.
Mr. Jewels and I had a few good laughs over the weekend as well.  We just about hopped into a minivan in a dark parking lot that wasn't ours, but looked a lot like ours. Another moment we had was when I was rubbing my eye and of course to get the full pleasure out of rubbing one's eye is that the mouth needs to be open as well.  Mr. Jewels was making fun of me and I asked him if he opened his mouth while rubbing his eyes and his response was "I don't rub my eyes, not since I stopped drinking milk".  I couldn't stop laughing at what he said. It did not make any sense to me, but it sure gave us a good laugh.

Monday, November 4, 2013

the "if only's"

       Looking back on the last few years of life I find I have a lot of 'if only'.  If only I had saved more money, if only I had spent more time taking the kids out, if only I had spent more time visiting family and friends, if only I had spent more time reading, studying, learning, exercising, being happy, if only I could predict the future, if only if only if only.  It could almost make you go crazy thinking and really regretting all the if only's.
         I didn't want to see the season change to fall, my summer wasn't complete and wasn't what I wanted it to be, again, if only I had enjoyed my summer.  Disappointment, stress and depression totally got in the way and I didn't feel like doing anything at all.  I am feeling much better now and have made the decision to be happy with the changing of the seasons, and the changing that life will most certainly bring, cause really, change can be a beautiful thing.  I won't focus on the negative that the "if only's" bring but take them to make the future just a whole lot better.      
        One thing I don't regret this summer was taking this little guy on a hike with me, we only went out a few times, but oh boy, they were great.